2 more days

till my Grandpa's one year. It's coming whether I'm ready for it or not, so might as well embrace what good can come from it .. I miss you Grandpa, I really do. I can't find any deeper words to describe how much I miss and love you even when I try to, I find it's a complete understatement. 1 year since you've left, and I never wanted to be in the position where I'm left counting days since you left, I wanted you to stay w/ us making the days count...I'm not ready for another Christmas, Halloween, Birthday, Graduation, Family gathering, Celebration, Easter, Cinco de Mayo, Father's Day, and any other holidays without you. The world is moving, and time is ticking without you, and I do not want to move on, but I know the world will not stop for ones unhappiness, or ones .. wants and desires. It's not like that.. You told me I have to fight for what I want, and I'm .. too tired, and heart broken to continue fighting, Gwampa. I miss you, but you're not coming back. It's harsh of me to say, especially to myself, but I have to get it through my head. I need to stop hurting myself waiting on your return. I love you, Gwampa, You know that .. everyone can see the depth of my love for you is on-going and that you didn't die in vain. You live within me, and I'm gonna always, always live through your words and your goals that you've intended for me. 42808<3